Hardest Hearts still break

Sitting in the Back of the room
In silence, wondering if this is it
In darkness, wanting change
Crying out, and crying within

Working on your heart
Softening it to the ones that love you
God speaks to your heart
Even if you don't hear

Ears sewn shut to the world
Ignoring those that love
Hurts beyond comprehension
Seeking, Straining

The love that is apon this man,
Finaly breaks though
Darkness shattered, Sudden understanding
Blinding like a flood light

Stiches fall, Smile shown
Hearing once more the words of love
Hurts Abolished, no more strain
No more seeking the one love is found

Dive in

Just Dive in im here for you
Trust me it will work out
Dont be nervous
Dont fear
Dont wonder what if
Because im here.
My heart cries out to you God
I pray and you answer
I ask and you give
I sit and wonder
You placed her in my life
Im forever greatful
With tears running down my face
I cry your name
With words of gratitude


Well tonight was a... well life changer for sure. As many of you know Sam and I have liked each other for a while, And as i was driving back to Matts house to drive her home i cryed out to God asking him "what should i do" . His answer was ... "dive in Russel im here for you"

Well and as i pulled it to Sams house i asked her the big Question. That took so much off my heart. and all that was replaced with Joy and the worlds most strongest of happyness. There are no words for the way i feel.

Foreign Feelings

Sitting here wondering
Sitting here loving
Sitting here crying
My heart is pouring out
No words to explain this
It's all I can do to contain myself
The day is near when we will unite
My soul is ripping out of my skin
Tears of joy flowing down my face
The feelings in my being are foreign
Never felt them before
Insides melting,
It's all I can do to hold you
Feeling your warmth keeps me alive
Seeing you completes my day
Hearing you, I go crazy
Smelling you, makes me high
Sitting here wondering
Sitting here loving
Sitting here crying

The Best Things

Over looking the beautiful creation
Such a vivid example of your love
With the one and only in my arms
Sitting in pure bliss knowing you are God
My heart is flying, on fire for Jesus
Pounding, racing for you are resting on me
Trying to sleep, not able.
Thoughts of you rush like rain fall in my head
So cold, your body keeps me warm
Your touch keeps me alive.

My Week

Well we started out last Sunday early in hte morning packing our stuff into hte bus to get ready to head to Camp 08. We all knew that it would be amazing, although the rain did dampen the spirits at first.
But after the first day the rain continued, and Camp as always was absolutly amazing. Also as usual God was there pouring out his love on all 200+ teens at this camp. Through out all the games and fun God was at work in the background since the first night about 20 kids got saved (WOOOOOO). Tuesday came and there was a service on Freedom and Forgivness that night and P. Corey came up to me about 1 hour before hte service and talked to me about my blog and asked me to write a poem for hte night and asked me if i could share it during worship. So i went back to my cabin and just sat there thinking about what i could write and as usual the words just kinda flowed onto the paper. If any of you guys know me you will say that yea i deffinitly do not like public speaking and i said htat to P. Corey and what he said next really hit me. "Russel its not public speaking, its part of worship." that sentance rocked me and that night i said the poem to the camp during worship and when i got back to my seat i just broke down.

This is the Poem i Wrote....
Free Falling Serenity
Coming from a Dark Place
Once lost, but now found
Jesus had blood drawn for us
Freedom strewn over our lives
Living in serenity, feels like falling
People do us wrong,
Digging deep we search ourselves
Finding it in us to forgive
Floating on the spirit
We rest in his spirit

Wed. night P. Derrik talked about giving and it was just so amazing the way he said it and the way the holy spirit talked through him to touch us on the subject.'
Thurs. P. Danny talked abut serving. It was also just amazing

On the final night last night Pastor Terry spoke on just how much Jesus loves us and we just had an amazing time of ministry and there wasn't a single dry face in that room that night every one was broken down crying and a ton more ppl got saved. New relationships were made and it was just so amazing at how God works in our lives and how he hits us in just the right places and how he speaks just what we need to hear

Here is a couple other poems i wrote while i was there...

Subtle Silence
Laying on your back
In the subtle silence
Whispers in your soul
Placeing a burden on your heart
Not letting your faith become stagnant
On fire for God, becoming ready
To live for the cause
Ready to lay down your life
For the vision.

Hard Questions
We sit and wonder.. Why?
We stand and think .. How?
We lay and ponder.. When?
The hard questions,
That know one knows,
The answers to.
What will happen here?
It's left unanswered
Leaving it up to God
Our insomnia ceases
We are calm knowing
God is our Guide.

camp WOO

So yea if oyu didn't now im going to go to the foursquare youth camp up in chilliwack WOOO O so for hte next week i wont have anything posted but when i get back i will have alot to say and a bunch of poems to put up so i hope you come check it out when im back :D

2 days till camp

So yea im pretty excited, so excited that i havnt even packed yet and i have to work those last 2 days ...>.< but yea its gunna be amazing as the new campers will have the experience and the chance to meet new ppl. So its gunna be amazing and we will have the chance to grow as friends and some of us will grow as leaders and others will grow as followers of Jesus.. well we will all grow in different ways and its just going to be amazing .. and i still hav eto pack

Heart sing

Lying on your back
In silent darkness
Thinking of you brightens the room
Music playing making my heart sing
Praising the Lord for what he has made
We stop and look at the beauty
Of nature and each other
Hearts pounding
Going a million miles an hour
Thoughts flying
Going a million miles an hour
Time slowing
Minute by minute
To a stop so we can be in this moment forever

First day at work

Well today was my first day at thriftys bakery!!! I got there and Ursula took me around the store to meet every one and then we got to work. So i was trained in almost all the ways of packaging ... which i did for 6 hours lol but it was sweet.

Shift guys hang

Well it was pretty awesome not gunna lie, we went out to the driving range at muligans golf coarse and we jsut hung out and hit some ballz. was a great time of friends ship and just having fun with friends. After that we went to 7/11 and got slurpees and just walked around the airpark talking it was a good day despite the rain and wind but that is going away in a doy WOOO